A Different Start For '06

Sandy,
As I approch the end of 2005 I know a new chapter of my being is about open with new year of 2006. You remember how I would start saying I'm fourty-x in January? Then I would have 8 months to prepare? I see now that is just a number and has no bearing on what I am.

This next year will bring in new challenges to me as just one of two. I must continue to learn from your ways as I manitane our home and our kids. I will still face emptiness for ever, but I do have the hope of being with you again. You and I made our lifes full being together. The happness that we had is good enough and will hold me over. I don't want that to be gone. Those times is ours and I will cherrish them until that time comes for us to reunite. Cause we were building things for the long haul, as the trees of the mighty forest growes and heals to continue giving air for us to breath.

Will continue next year.

Jan. 03, 2006

The ways we dreamed of things were dashed, I must live. In the way I can and the best I can in this this matter. I'll try to do that. It seems that I must have hope that I can. The most important thing is what I can do to keep my sanity. I must thing clearly and if I can't I will ask for help.

Sandy I will miss you and do miss you forever and I love you forever