New Day, Yesterday

As I have been a member of a few internet groups, to me, the common thing is that we (I) have to 'carry on'. Now I'm not saying 'Move On'. That is totally different. But 'Carry On' is a beast in itself. For those whom might not know, it's a struggle just to get up from a restless night of sleep. That is why I say New Day, Yesterday. I want to be in the yesterday zone, but I will not be able to as we know it. DO I see the me being more able undertake that task? Yes- in time with in our home. But the presure of the 'everyday stuff' will be a while. It's so hard to laugh or do something with Sandy their with me, or I with her.

I finshed going through our pictue boxes. I had found a bunch more of Sandy, then a few more of these photos. ( reach up and 'Click' ) I hope to finsh them up soon. We were happy just if there was just the two of us and no one else. The world and us, the Andy's. I have a task of tring NOT to be guilty of not being able to help her, or fixing "it". I always tried to. But this was out of my hands. ( So I think? ) But we will be able to rest at some point.

Maybe things on the yesterday might help me learn to do things better for me. As I am the selfish one now. I have Sandy's legisee to up hold. No one eles. We are/were One. And no way is anyone going to take that.

I got things up away, and started splitting the wood from the tree out front. That'a lot'a wood!! But the satifaction of splitting a large log with one blow, is cool. Like the time I was tring to "ring the bell" at the small fair's we went to. I would play it up, and goof off for Sandy, just to see her laugh and skoll me for being a goof.

Love Ya Sweety-Forever